You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

This quote is from one my favorite tv shows right now Grey’s Anatomy. Right now I am growing through a stage where I feel like I am letting my future kids down as a mom. I am 20 years old and never had a boyfriend. I have never been kissed. I only went a high school dance with a guy once and he was just a friend. I never went to Prom! Then one of my best friends reminded me innocence is invaluable. Society has so much influence over us. God will provide us with the person we are meant to be with maybe you know the person now or maybe not!! That is one thing I learned this past week! My future kids can look at me and know that I waited for their father!! And that is one thing I am now proud to say!! Hello I’m Kaitlyn and sure 20 years old and never been kissed!! I am a pure, strong, Christian, woman waiting on her beloved to love me the way I am!! My fairy tale WILL come true!!!

Song of Songs 6:3

I am my lover's and my lover is mine